I don't know what it is, but I can't stop looking at my ultrasound from yesterday. I realize that there's not an embryo visible, yet. But, looking at my tiny little gestational sac and yolk sac make it so much more real to me.
The reason is this: With all of my miscarriages, I never made it to an ultrasound, never saw my baby on the screen, never saw any sacs, never saw any physical evidence that my babies existed. I remember feeling weird that I had kept my old pregnancy tests (one from each m/c baby). But, it was my only "proof" that I was pregnant. It was my only physical element for me to say "I had a baby inside of my womb".
So, this gestational sac and yolk sac on my ultrasound is just beautiful. It may not be what the dr.'s want it to be right now, but its a sight for sore eyes. Regardless of what happens, I'll have this picture to hold onto. I'll have this tiny glimpse of my baby.
For that, I'm so thankful.