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Wednesday, May 6, 2009

less than 24 hours

until my ultrasound.

Not that I'm counting or anything. No, that would be a little too obsessive. To sit, look at the clock, and calculate in my head how many hours I have to go until I can get an early peak at my baby.

Nope, I wasn't thinking that.

But, I'll tell you what I was thinking. I was thinking that this is the most pregnant I've been since Austin's pregnancy. Two other times I made it this far. Two other times I made it to the first ultrasound. Two other times I brought home a baby from those pregnancies.

Sure, I know its still early. Sure, I know that something could still happen. Sure, I'm still nervous, and panicky, and neurotic about pee sticks and temperatures. But, for me, for MY body, this is a miracle!

So miraculous that I actually pulled down some maternity clothes from the attic. I sorted through some and put some of the smaller stuff in the wash (yes, I'm already struggling in my clothes. Yes, I realize that its not the baby, yet. Yes, its just bloating.) I haven't been that hopeful since...well, my loss in July of 07.

Wow. Its a miracle.

9 comments:

T- said...

I can't wait for you to see your little baby!

Raechel said...

So excited for you, Tracy! I can't wait to hear about your appt tomorrow! Is it early in the AM?

Eric isn't planning any trips out of town any time soon, is he?? ;)

Love and joy!
Rae

Dan & Hillary and little Russell said...

Tick-tock, tick-tock... how slowly can time pass? Looking forward to seeing your bean!!

d e v a n said...

<3

I'm so happy for you!

Melissa said...

This IS your miracle, Tracy! Enjoy it!

Photogrl said...

Can't wait to hear how the U/S went!

So exciting!

Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend said...

So excited after reading your story....Just found your blog and enjoyed reading it.
I hope you will stop by and visit me. The May give away has started....and next week I will be blogging from Disney World.

Jennifer said...

I am sooo happy for you and I am praying for you and your little one :) God bless :)

Jenny said...

I am so happy for you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers for a healthy pregnancy.