Should I share my blog with people I know in real life?
I have very limited number of people who follow my blog that know my in real life. I know several people who have gone through a miscarriage since it's conception. Sometimes I feel like I should share it with them. I know when I first started my blog, I found it very encouraging to find other women like me (in fact, its STILL encouraging!) that were living their life, sharing their grief, and sharing their faith.
The thing is, I feel safe with my blog. I feel safe enough to be brutally honest about my feelings sometimes. I feel safe to share my constant grief to a community of people who "get it" or who support me. Do I share this with people I see on a daily basis?
Here's what I don't want to happen. I don't want people to feel sorry for me. Its fine if Jane from California feels sorry for me after reading some of my posts. Its not going to change her behavior towards me. Its not okay if my friend from playgroup feels sorry for me after reading my blog. Get it? I don't want people to treat me different after reading about a hard day I had, or saying stupid statements about my losses.
Here's why I feel like maybe I should- its my testimony. This blog is my testimony. Its my testimony to my faith in God, and its a testimony of God's faithfulness to me. No matter if I have another living child or not, God has used my losses to change who I am (and that's what my testimony is about!)
Do I want to keep others from feeling that same comfort that I felt when reading other blogs? Do I really want to keep other's away from reading about God's amazing grace and mercy? Just to feel safe?