Monday, April 6, 2009

April is hard

Delayed gratification is hard for a 2.5 yr old.

Apparently, a 4 year old has a better grasp. Or at least, is more proud of
the eggs she found versus the consuming desire to eat candy.

Another reason its hard:

Its a due date month, two times over. My first miscarriage baby, (where I knew I was pregnant,) would be one this month. Miscarriage baby #5 would be due at the end of April.

Its hard to find joy, and hope, when I feel so full of despair. My heart hurts, and my arms ache. my new nanny boy is sweet as pie, but I have a hard time holding him with out thinking of my lost babies.


Lisa said...

I'm so sorry that April is so hard for you.

T- said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers.


Anonymous said...

Hugs to you Tracy~

Heather said...

So sorry. Hugs!

d e v a n said...

Cute pictures!!! Sorry that April isn't a very happy month. ((hug))

Jennifer said...