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Monday, January 12, 2009

Feeling a tad embarrassed

that my good friend just had twins today and I'm jealous. Happy that she is, right now, holding two precious little healthy babies in her arms. Jealous because I don't have one. Happy that she made it a few weeks extra, Jealous because we were due only a week apart and I have nothing to show for it. Happy that everything went well and she's at the hospital resting. Jealous that I won't be waking up to nurse a baby. Happy that I'll be able to go see them all on Wednesday.

Those emotions are so hard, sometimes. To be so happy for someone else's joy, but so sad on the inside for yourself.

6 comments:

Michelle P. said...

Hugs Tracy~ all those feelings are normal- don't beat yourself up about it. You will have your baby- YOU WILL!

Lisa said...

It stinks and I'm sorry!

Jackie said...

I'm sorry Tracy! =(

d e v a n said...

Aw, I'm sorry. :(

Mama2Boys said...

I've been there, a friend of mine just announced that she's pg...I know that I have to avoid for another year but it's hard.

Melanie said...

I'm sorry. I understand.