Saturday, January 24, 2009

A good sign, I hope

So, my nipples have been killing me last night and today. (I know, I know. Too much information. But, I know you all *want* to know!) I've also been very tired yesterday and today.

I'm hoping that it means that the hormone is increasing and is causing some symptoms of pregnancy. (its actually sort of strange to be symptom free. All of my other m/c's I've had nausea)

I don't want to get my hopes up too high, because I've been down this road before, too. The road where I get hopefull and think that maybe, just maybe this might be it. That it might be okay. That I won't have to go through it all again.

In fact, my last pregnancy (this past summer) even tricked us. It was a low beginner number, too. It started to double- a tad. We got all excited. Then, it dropped. Just like that.

After 5 times, its hard not to be pessimistic about the 6th. But, I hate being pessimistic. Its not who I am. (nor am I super optomistic. I like to think I'm relatively balanced in that area. Maybe my friends would disagree...who knows?) Being hopefull and getting hurt is so hard. So. Freaking. Hard.

Anywho- I'm praying that God is doing wonders in my body right now. To quote a friend of mine, Raechel "you have life right now and that is wonderful!" Thanks, Raechel. You encouraged me so much with those words! How right you are! I AM pregnant, and there is life inside of me. I hope that I will be able to meet this little life here on earth.


d e v a n said...

I hope it's a good sign, it sure sounds like it!!

Amanda said...

You absolutely have life and you ARE pregnant right now. I have high hopes for you...

Oh- and you never have to apologize for TMI on a blog about TTC!